Now I know I’m not the only pastor in the world that worries about his church and whether or not it will survive the next Sunday’s offering but I’m on vacation and I’m not suppose to be worrying about things like this. Right? Yet here it is 2 AM in the morning and I can’t sleep. Wide awake and I’m up thinking about the low offering we had Sunday and ways I can fix it and finance our church and pay the staff and all the other things necessary to make WC go every week. I just get tired of never having the freedom financially to do what we need to in order to reach people for Christ. (Yeah I know, I’m whining. But I deserve at least one blog to do it).  I wonder if we will ever be free of this curse we are under. (Mal. 3 for those who think I’m over dramatic)

So what I do when I have days like this? I always question my abilities and the decisions I make. Did I make the right call on staff hires? Did I make the right call on ministry ops? Did we spend the money wisely on this or on that? It is a constant internal battle that is wearing me out.

I understand that all this UN-LOADING is for my own therapy but I hope when you read this you will do one thing; PRAY! Pray for me and pray for WC. John 15:5 tell us we can do nothing apart from HIM. And I know this intellectually. Where I have trouble is in the practical. Knowing and doing are two very different things.

So prayer is where my battle is. Not in the physical. So all my worrying and no sleep is doing WC and me absolutely no good.  Matter of fact it is wasting valuable energy that I could be spending praying for WC.
So what I’m going to do now is pray. I’m going to seek God’s face on this financial issue and then I’m going to trust HIM with the results. After all, WC is HIS church not mine. My responsibility is to obey what HE says and trust HIM with it.

Thanks for hangin’ out while I had this little UN-LOADING session. I feel better already. Who knows, God just might work another miracle at WC just like He has many times before. I’m expecting it.